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So a blog. This is what my life has come to now. Blogging............ Who ever would have thought that? I'm not 100% sure where to go from here? Tell you about my life till now? Just keep this going as my life as it happens? My random thoughts? Where do we go from here?
Its the begging of a new year. And its not starting out that great. Tomorrow we put my Aunt Claudia to rest. She had a tough fight with cancer this last year. Claudia is the 4th chilled in the Dart family to pass a way. I feel so bad for my Grandmother. In the perfect world we would hope to never out live our own children and she has done it four times. Plus her Husband. Not to mention Mom, Dad, and I believe two sisters.
But this brings me to some of my thoughts. Love the people in your life. Don't be afraid to let people into your life. These are just words I know unless we act on them. In a way I feel bad for the people who said. "gosh I meant to get over and see her I just never found the time." We have all said it and yes some times we don't have the time. On our way home from work all we want to do is go home. The last think on our mind is to get off at that exit and stop by. Did they really want to stop and say HI? Or are they telling that to themselves in a out spoken monologue. So we don't think them a bad person? Or are we afraid to admit to ourselves that we are mortal and that could happen to us too? Questions of life I know. I don't expect any of us to have the answers just things to chew on.
I myself feel sorrow for my Cousins. I want to make sure they all know how much I love them. I want my Aunts to know how much I love them. My Mother (who at this point we are not talking to each other) to know that I do love her even though we don't see eye to eye on much of anything. But most of all I want my grandmother who I love more then any other person in this world to know how much I love her. She is the ROCK of the Dart family and as dysfunctional as we all are. We are still family.